shame

You really do lose it if you don't use it. I look at things now like "are you serious jessica you know this shit". The thought of this actually brings a tear to my eye because I'm extremely hard on myself and "dammit jessica you have to get it perfect ". But it's more than actual education knowledge it's little common sense things. It's like my life stopped at 19 and restarted when I moved to MCC. Not to say my aides and semester of college before coming here didn't teach me anything, because they did. But one time here someone said to me " we need to stick you outside with some sunscreen so you turn brown ". Granted I didn't really use much sunscreen before but "duh jessica". And another embarrassing moment came when someone here explained to me how learning music is linked to learning math."Duh jessica ". My life and body are no longer perfect please let my mind stay perfect