I said no thank you

The nurse tonight helping me with dinner asked me " do you use thick it? "my immediate response was to shake my head no really fast hahahahaha been there done that,I used it when I first had my stroke

It's official

Almost cried just now. I found my first gray hair! Nataja made fun of me because I seriously got teary eyed when we found it.

suck it up

So I got some rough news yesterday .My Mom has to have surgery,brain surgery in a few weeks.After sobbing like a baby for an hour this weird calmness has come over me .Like "Buck up Jessica, be the big sister and daughter .Mom was brave for you so now be brave for her "My goal is to not cry in front of her about it .And it is working so far .They have to shave the back of her head so to keep us both smiling  I tell her she is going to have a reverse mullet hahahahaha

growing

Sat today on the mat completely by myself for about 30 sec and Tuesday walked 30 feet with just the harness and my PTs for assistance

FYI

For the next time you enter a grocery store down south vs up north and you are driving a wheelchair / large cart. The aisles are much wider down south

tapping

I have the whips and jangles and i have not even had coffee yet. My grandfather called being anxious and jittery that. Im antzy about the book

control

Im so bored and anxious. My book is basically done and now it's really in the hands of my friend helping me and the people helping me collect money for the publisher so the control freak in me is flipping out! I feel like that scene in Corky Romano when he accidentally inhales cocaine and talks to the kids " question? Anyone have a question? You do? You don't? You do? You don't? "

30

Omg it's true! They say after 30 your stomach gets bigger. I am 3 months away and my stomach looks awful. Bring in the extra water and extra exercise, you're not getting me

hard work

I just walked in pt without something in front of me! Just the harness and my pt's on both sides! It was our first time trying it. They were laughing at me because they usually freeze me but I was huffing and puffing and sweating bullets

Detoured Destiny

Getting closer and closer to publishing my book !!Gathering all the loose ends .This is really exciting but the anal perfectionist in me is freaking out !!

great quote

But who prays for Satan? Who in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most, our one fellow and brother who most needed a friend yet had not a single one, the one sinner among us all who had the highest and clearest right to every Christian's daily and nightly prayers, for the plain and unassailable reason that his was the first and greatest need, he being among sinners the supremest?
- Mark Twain's Autobiography

done

Well my speech went great! Me, my roommate and our case manager went to the school. It was the staff and we both got standing ovations! They even asked questions after. And yes I was still nervous

nervous

I have another speech tomorrow morning at a high-school. And I'm fine,seriously