Thursday, December 31, 2015

New Year

What is your resolution? Mine is to be the best me possible. Whether that is mentally, physically, spiritually, financially, just a best me possible 

Sunday, December 20, 2015

think about it

 heard a great quote today! "Life's interuptiions  are God's introductions"

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

go for it

Guess who made a big accomplishment today!! Sat by myself on the side of the mat for 5 minutes and 30 seconds!
Of course my PTs were by me in case lol

Tuesday, November 24, 2015


They finally fixed my desktop computer to be used like my Dynavox  what a a HeadMouse. So much faster and easiest for me!1

Sunday, November 8, 2015


Because of my stroke coming out of nowhere I've learned you can't really plan anything, but when I get this degree in Behavioral Science I think I want to be a counselor (a birth control counselor).

But that isn't a plan universe, I said think

Saturday, October 24, 2015


Start class Monday and getting a head start with  couple assignments

Monday, October 19, 2015

tick tock

I don't know what to do this week because I don't have class, i read my syllabus for the next class and it looks pretty easy but with my luck it will probably be hard lol!

My brother Blake and his friend Logan came up to visit

Saturday, October 3, 2015


School is making my mind exhausted! It's good exhaustion but it's hard .

Monday, September 21, 2015

on to the next

So the sorority canceled me for this weekend, and yes I cried about not being able to go and educate about the dangers of birth control, but make lemonade out of lemons and move on them saying no is just a bump in the road. "Make your letter better Jessica and try again"

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

hopefully great

In the process of making a slide show about the dangers of birth control!

Sunday, August 16, 2015

my passion

I think i want to be a birth control counselor. Doing so much research for my paper is really opening my eyes and I feel like all the girls that died from birth control complications are pushing me like "Go for it get the word out "

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

almost done for the week

Our assignments this week for school are easy! Good I'll get to finish early and do my paper and the extra credit. I said this to my friend Nataja and got the sarcastic thumbs up

Friday, August 7, 2015

what if lightning strikes twice

Me,the nurse and the doctor are going to have a phone conference to talk about my Lupron shot again. Im due for another and it works but really really really scared!

Friday, July 24, 2015

boiling point

At my witts end with this class. It doesn't accept all my Dynavox commands so like every so often I have to ask someone to plug in my keyboard and push like control A...O I was boohooin last night ready to give up. But it's halfway through and I just have to push through it

Saturday, July 18, 2015


I feel like the world's biggest hypocrite.I have two embarrassing admissions.The first is really my hinderance.

Because of the fall I'm taking a narcotic pain pill sometimes.Sometimes!

This one is really bad...Im taking a hormone shot. Because of my blood disorder it causes me to have alot of gynecological issues.And one we think is me possibly having endometriosis.And the shot immensely helps with the horrible pain.It stops my period and that stopping makes the pain go away.I got the first one a few months ago and it lasts for 3 months,so it's time for another one...The doctor and my family and my friends are all like "Its good and it works.There is no question.Get it again"Ummmm it's my body and it really really really scares me and I don't know ...

Saturday, July 4, 2015

how cool

 forgot to tell you the good news! I sent my book to several people and one was TD Jakes Ministeries and the ministry actually mailed me back a letter thanking me!!

Feel like this sometimes ...sometimes

The Fray - You Found Me (with lyrics) + HQ

Thursday, July 2, 2015

today is my independence day

Pretty much better from my fall, well I look a lot better but my body still hurts.

Finally have my dynavox back today, but this experience did show me something. My grandmother gave me her Nook and I found out I can use it with a stylus in my right hand!!

Sunday, June 21, 2015


Went to see Jurassic World yesterday in IMAX 3D the and the dinosaurs were so real one came out and attacked me! Actually I fell down 8 steps. Im fine! Just some bruises, rug burns and 6 stitches. It really looks worse than it feels! My muscles and scrapes hurt more than my stitches right now. Im very lucky! The movie was great by the way

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

getting things done

Went to do my extra PT at University of Delawareand did most of my homework for the week!

Saturday, June 6, 2015


Sorry I have not blogged lately. School is keeping me really busy. I love it and everything! But it is really time consuming and not easy. I feel like a friggin idiot with most of my answers. It's embarrassing! I have not really done this kind of stuff since before my stroke so it's hard and completely different having to use my Dynavox now

Thursday, May 21, 2015

crybaby party of 1

Omg there is not enough time in the day or week! I feel like crying it's so much work for me. In the time it takes you to type a page it takes me to type a sentence! I don't need help I just want 5 minutes to complain

Friday, May 8, 2015


My college classes start Monday! Im so nervous and anxious and excited. I feel like I'm crouched over the starting line to a race and the announcer's saying "Rrrreeeady Ssssset Go!"

Friday, May 1, 2015

beanie wenie

So my trying to eat less meat diet I have done for the past few years is done ( kind of) and I'm not happy! The drink they made me have for more protein tasted horrible and made me gain weight so I quit taking it. Because my blood disorder they have to check my bloods PT and INR for its clotting time when they do that they have to also check my albumin ( protein levels ). And because I don't like to eat much meat it's low, like really low lol. Its supposed to be 3. 3-6 and mine is 3. 8. So it's either the drink or more meat ( or my sneaking in meatless protein )

Monday, April 27, 2015


It is official! I am a Wilmington University Wildcat and start my online Sociology class in 2 weeks! Im starting with one class first to get my feet wet

Sunday, April 26, 2015

spread the word

Sending a bunch of celebrities and colleges my ebook with a little letter !Trying to spread out the knowledge of this occurrence.Please e-mail me if you want to help m

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Tuesday, March 24, 2015


Check out my pretty new chair! It even smells new .I think I'll name her Emmie since she's emerald-green .I told someone a long time ago I would donate my chair when I was done with it and I got t do that today!

Sunday, March 22, 2015


It's so frustrating when PT let's me do things by myself and I fold.Like when we stand or something they slowly take their hands off me to see if I can do it by myself and I feel it or see it and get scared and buckle .Mentally I know I'm capable of the independence but I have been relying on other people so long it's scary to me .And what's worse is that nobody understands my fear .

Sunday, March 15, 2015


Watching Oprah's Super Soul Sunday and these shows always suck me in and makes me think .I like my new normal .As much as I don't like to admit this the old me doesn't exist anymore and this new me is awesome!

Monday, February 23, 2015


So I've started something really exciting,extra physical therapy at a rehab! It's going really good and hopefully I'll have pictures soon.

I forgot how funny and inappropriate the positions my PTs get me in .I want to crack up about it with them but most of them are students and learning

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Wednesday, February 4, 2015


Eating humble pie! So a couple years ago my friend Natja told me " Write a book about your story because moms will read it and tell their daughters and then they will go to your blog ". For years her, my family and other friends said to me " Write a book " and my excuse was always " No because young people are more likely to read my blog than a book ". Moms are definitely asking me now questions about my blood disorder and they are going to give my book to their daughter. And then they look at my blog. So I was half right!

Monday, January 26, 2015



It feels awesome to give my book to somebody and then they give it to somebody else after. This feeling is like the greatest high ever! The spreading the knowledge of the dangers of birth control is more important than money

Wednesday, January 14, 2015


I love feeding myself and helping with my care but it's embarrassing when people stare at me. I get enough gawking in public and don't need it here too. OT got me a new semi permanent left handed pole to feed myself and I did it at dinner but I felt like screaming " it is not that big of deal quit starring! "

Monday, January 12, 2015

something else

You know how I've been telling you all about my horrible period cramps. Well we are finally figured out that it is worse because my body is compressed in this chair .smh

Friday, January 9, 2015

I don't know

I feel bad for thinking this but it's like so many good things are happening in my life right now from the book to getting a scholarship for school to getting to start extra physical therapy soon and when is my luck going to run out .You pulled the rug out from me before when everything was good so I'm ready this time around .I don't want to think this but fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me

Tuesday, January 6, 2015


So big news !It is the official launch of the website for my book and shirts  The paperbacks are available to purchase and the ebooks will be ready soon

Sunday, January 4, 2015

My Dirty 30

 my O so fitting decorations

 my awesome cake

 my first shot since before my stroke .it was not that bad probably because I was already drunk